TITIANMACS BABY DIARY

[moon]

is it ok to interrupt and just say that this is really great to read! I particularly love the photos. Your daughter is beautiful and I really loved seeing your wedding pics. I can't wait to see the new baby - I guess its a boy then! do you have names. Let me know if its wrong to interrupt your post -----sorry

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
monday 22nd august 2005

10:34pm

Hello!
Well i'm sure after a day or 2 of me being missing several of you assume perhaps the baby is here but sadly for me no such luck! Its lovely to have got a reply notification to my diary and find a message from Moon- of course its okay to say hey- thats why i keep my stuff in purple so if people want to skip or chat its easy Besides, its good to know real people are reading this not just the few of my mates who i've sent the link to as i cant keep in touch with everyone all that well at the moment funny enough!
In answer- yes, they think its a boy.... never give you a 100% and in this case we had a shy little one at scan time typically so even then it was only glimpses but it was enough of a maybe that we felt perhaps things like the pink wall in the nursery should be painted over and perhaps a spot of shopping in the boys dept wouldnt go a miss- some bits of emilys are neutral colours like lime or lemon, lilac- you know the ones but reality is they're quite girly and i hate the embarrassment caused to people when they get it wrong, personally i think babies all look the same and generally resemble little old men or shrivelled up birds never mind then working out if its a boy or girl!!! Thankfully emily was quite cute but we arent holding our breath with the next one, life is never that perfect As for the clothes thing and stuff i think its easier for a girl to wear a splash of pink like a little tshirt with navy or khaki than it is putting a boy in a top with fairies on
As for the question of names- well had you asked me 2 days ago i'd have confidently said Jay. Not short for anything just simple Jay but after several beers the other evening Andrew announced with rather poor timing that he's not to sure on that name anymore. No reason or backup, or other suggestions for that matter- just not sure. Hmm we'll see!

Emily is continuing well on her mission to kill herself... in the space of less than 2 weeks we've had the tumble down stairs from top to bottom, the trip to a&e with a poorly arm, several little bumps as usual, a good scuff on her face via the tarmac on friday and today a huge lump on her forehead from crashing into the doorframe at high speed simply misjudging her curve. She is more and more doomed by the day as she continues to develop more of andrew's inquizitiveness and my clumsiness (do excuse any mad spelling-hopefully you all get me okay?!) The tarmac attack was particularly disturbing not for me or emily but poor Aisling and Gemma who had taken her to the park! Aisling is my little buddy from london- she was on of my bridesmaids- bit like a little sister- anyway... she and her friend are staying up here for a week during school break before going back to start college. They arrived friday lunchtime and by teatime were both terrified they were going to be sent home or killed for emilys accident. I have tried to explain that had they shuved her face first i'd indeed be a trifle upset but when a pepped up kid goes on a mission and its legs arent as quick as they should be causing a typical tumble there's no blame, pain but no blame. Bless them, they got her home asap but emily only returned via a quick one last go on the swings Her lip was poochy and her nose squashy and cut but nothing that isnt fixing by good old calpol. She still had all her teeth and her nose wasnt broken so it was more a shock than anything... it cant be that bad because she asked to go back next day and still mamged to smile for the camera as you can see.


Babywise, the braxton hicks are slowing i think, that or im just used to them now The days are long, the nights are longer. My maternity stuff is on its last stretch and my belly button is so shallow it now quivers disturbingly close to being an outy if the baby does a jig. The girls tonight painted the lemon wall of the nursery with some fresh lemon paint ( a bargain 3 in the sale at our local diy) and tomorrow my quest is to find a shade of orange less zingy than sorbet but more punchy than peach. The dilema you see is that we have one minty/turquiosy/aqua type green wall, one lemon, and one lavender thats neither blue nor purple but of the bluey type. Combined with the pink they look ace especially as the sky is pale blue with clouds on but sadly with the pink wall being painted out and the lavender and sky already there another shade of blue just looks blue for blue=boys sake are you keeping up??! We think therefor we're opting for an orange, its that or red i guess. The obvious thing would be change the lavender wall but we were abit smart and painted the alphabet in gold and glitter, half on the lavender and half the green so they kind of need to stay not least because they'd be a royal arse to paint over!!!
I still havent packed my maternity bag for hospital get but i have dug out my trusty pink gingham pyjamas ready for if they keep me in. The midwife has me down for 6 hr discharge which is minimum once you get there to give birth through choice as appose to opting for home birth. Irony im sure can found in the dictionary stating its meaning as you knacker after giving birth, your baby fast asleep but you totally awake not through joy or worry but other stupid babies and mums surrounding you who dont shut up!!! Now i have all the sympathy in the world for people especially those who are attempting to breast feed but sadly it didnt help me sleep when their baby screams with hunger, the mum screams with pain and frustration, the buzzer perminantly calls another nurse for help and the nurse keeps bobbing in and out! Personally through choice i chose to pop emily straight on a bottle and although she didnt feed well because she was mucusy she fed better than her surrounding buddies! its a big debate the whole breast or bottle feeding thing but for various reasons i decided to skip breast feeding and go for the bottle immediately as i will with this one to. The main reason i guess is that i suffer from M.E. As yet, the medical industry are still disagreeing wether it even exists and have no idea what causes it. All i know is that its real. Further more i am not able to be a blood donor as they havent yet decided if it is possible to pass on somehow. This being the case the last thing i want to do is pass on my super germ resistant goodness to find actually it isnt that super or good! My immune system is low so i'm probably not passing on the best of it anyway. I know that a tin of milk has been researched and tested for ages to provide the best possible package available being well balanced and nutritional. That was good enough for me and seeing Emily thriving as she is i dont see any obvious harm done yet that would put me off the same plan of action for the next one! Only down side to it all is that breast feeding helps you lose weight quicker

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary

saturday 27th August 2005
9:58pm

D'oh, time flies when your having fun- or massively pregnant and slightly stressed... i knew i hadnt logged on for a wee while but didnt realise it was last monday! Aisling and Gemma were here until Thursday morning so i guess that counts for till then- 2 giggling teenagers, horror movies and chocolate galore have filled my world!
Still no baby much to my annoyance- August is running out fast. Andrew today put forward a valid reason from boy world for being the oldest in class not youngest but i'd still rather have a baby now making it youngest in the school year - than frustrated all through school for being practically a year behind plus having all the fees for extra nursery etc! The reason from boyland for those of you wondering is car related funny enough. The little aprentice at work with Andrew at the mo has just had his 17th birthday and can finally learn to drive. His annoyance is that most of his friends from school have already passed their test as they are practically a year older than he thus are now about to start clubbing instead (legally) where as he once again has a years wait! Personally i see these as a bonus not hinderance as he will have saved quite a bit of money on petrol and insurance while they drive him around but in boyland this just isnt the way they think!

The nursery is getting close to finished- honest Today i managed to finally find some coloured fitted cotbed sheets in plain cotton (harder than youd think) so the bedding is sorted at last and to add to my delight they were in the sale and got me bonus points on my loyalty card!
The pink wall is now orange but for a brushstroke here and there where i couldnt get the blind down awaiting its second coat. The blind incidently is now down so all i have to do is cut 3cm off the new one and finish painting and we're done! The orange paint was another bargain at a mere 3.88 instead of about 8 so its all coming together nicely and balancing the fortune we ended up shelling out on Emily's funky new room. I'm still not sure the orange wall works fantastically with the blind being blue, its a bit clumsy, but i suppose it looks fine when its up and wont be seen when down so balances in the end- the orange itselfs fits really well with the other colours and was amazingly a perfect shade. My only worry now is curtains but considering Emily never had any im not exactly stressed about a pair for the baby- thats the beauty you see of blackout blinds.
We realised earlier that the pram is still at my mum and dads so needs fetching and cleaning ready for baby and the carseat etc to get him home is in the loft so needs grabbing down Again not exactly things i can do right now so more for poor andrew to add to his ever growing list list. My list is easy, now that my maternity bag is just about packed it simply says "Buy peanut M&M's" Mmmmmmmmm
I have survived without drink ( i dont drink much thankfully at the best of times these days) and dont smoke. I only fancy cheese like brie every so often so have managed quite happily without that. Im not into seafood etc but the one thing making this pregnancy drag is my lack of ability to chomp through a bag or 2 of peanut m&m's when i fancy some Seriously- that is hard!!! Its one of those daft things though, at the end of the day they are still all sorts of confussed about peanut allergy but at the mo advise you to stay clear of them when pregnant. At the end of the day its only 8 months of my life for a fresh start to a new life, after all you'r already a month pregnant when you find out so its not even like giving up stuff for 9 months- just 8! All the same if the stupid baby ends up with a peanut allergy anyway i'll be gutted... but on the brightside he wont be able to steal my m&Ms!!!

Emily is doing well, she loved nursery again this week and despite not having been for the week as she only does tuesdays at present fitted in happily and got glowing reports. She sat and ate all her dinner which is cool as its the hardest part for most kids apparently and generally was an angel. She continues her clumsy phase- on monday as you know she got a lovely bump on her head which was rainbow coloured for several days and today now that its fading she's added a new look by again walking into a wall! She just spun around and set off but was about 10 inches the left of the doorway resulting in a close range collision. She has a new bump on her forehead, a pink nose and small mark on her lip where i think she must have bit it or something. I'll be glad when she starts nursery more regular so that other people whitness her attacks as at the moment joking aside we continue to expect a visit from childrens welfare or something investigating us as abusive parents!

oh- on a weddingy related thingy- Marie, my brothers fiancee looks to have found her dream dress! We got an idea of style, then searched the web for possibles, narrowed them down, added a few similar from another shop and range but now agree that we think she's found the one. It was only available to try in red at the time but the cut and finish were just perfect. She looked disgustingly petite yet curvy and totally comfortable in the thing, it really was "the one" so we've ordered in a sample to try in diamond white for next week then its go go go fingers crossed. I am sooooo pleased for her

Next week is set to continue in its simple but chaotic fashion, i doubt i'll have the baby but anticipate many more uncomfortable moments. I've booked in with my sister in law who's a beauty therapist for a lash and brow tint and brow wax which will be nice and depending how things go i may spoil myself and get some nail extensions too. I only have them short anyway so am not worried about the baby as such, more that if it comes and ai squeeze Andrews hand while digging him he wont be best pleased! Last time there was analmighty crack noise at one point and to this day we're still not sure if i dislocated then relocated his finger at one point, i just remeber the look on the midwifes face followed by my little squeek of sorry and his brave thats okay attitude because i was getting emily out which by comparison we assume was far more horrendous!!! I was looking back at the family pic of the 3 of us when we'd just had Emily- the one posted on here and laughing. It was taken literally about 40 mins after she arrived practically as soon as they were done with my stitches etc (had an episotomy) so is a very raw and real photo if ever there was one. Poor andrew was probably more tired than me- he'd done a days work finishing the nursery then gone to work and completed a nightshift! He arrived home just after 5 am an hour early in the hopes of a few hours sleep before the guys came at 9 to fit the combi boiler only to find me sat in the bath biting the shower curtain trying desperately to ring his mobile (which he couldnt hear from the music while driving) in labour good and proper. No time for sleep we upped and left then eventually had emily at 11:23am. I'll never forget once out of the delivery suite and safely upstairs in our cubicle, a nurse popped her head in to see we were alright and found Andrew sparked out on my bed with Emily beside him sleeping too and me sat in the visitors chair reading a book! Apparently im one of the few people who manged to achnowledge how tired the poor dad was in it all and the nurse just couldnt believe her eyes! Needless to say over the next few minutes i dont think there was a nurse there who didnt pop and peek at us with a little coo or aww at the sight of this magical sight. It was your classic big manly dude with precious little baby.... he doesnt know but i have the moment on videocamera and its one i continue to treasure

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary

wednesday 31st august 2005
10:00pm

Much to my disapointment, unless a miricle happens this baby is not arriving in august given that there are only 2 hours left!
I am sat once again having braxton hicks but just when they start to make my toes curl a bit or they seem vaguely frequent and i look at a clock to start timing they stop Last night i really thought something was happening but no, nothing I am quite simply p*ssed off...
To make things worse i had a midwifes appointment today and all she kept saying was how low the baby was, like "so low.... really low... I mean really so low!" Yeah, like i didnt know that already- hello?! The midwife i started seeing is off sick at the moment so i never know quite who will greet me for the next appointment, the last few visits have been the same chick but today was a completely new person. Its fun to see different peoples reactions, i guess they see so many people its refreshing to see someone new. Anyway, she was poking about at my tummy to see what was what and i could tell from her expresion not that something was wrong but that was almost doubting her own judgement- you see this is one HUGE baby! At least, thats what ive been thinking and today she confirmed..... As she proded and poked you could see like us that youd be forgiven for believing this thing was lying sideways not top to bottom but yet as she confirmed like those before her its engaged which clearly means head down thus is simply a chunky monkey! It went like this:
her: "You're quite big arent you, a neat bump well carried but you're tall and have nice curves..."
me: "yeah, thanks i think, about 5'10 and slim but with shape at the best of times"
Her: "hmm, is your partner quite large too?"
me: "yep, he's 6ft+ and quite broad..."
her:" how big was your last baby?"
me: "8lb7oz"
her "was she on time?"
me: "2days late..."
her: "Hmm, pretty normal then.... a good size"
me "i guess its to be expected, we're not small so genetically our kids wont be either, why??! is this one rather large??"
her: "yes"
me: "can you put a number on it or what?! do i dare ask??"
her: "id say its a good 8lbs+ already and if your full term its got 2 weeks growth yet"
me: " "

Im told not to worry as once you've had one kid your body is stretched and stuff so the second is easier- nice. However, i confess to being a wee bit horrified now more than ever that its not an august baby!!!


Since my last diary entry not much has changed. Today in the nursery i attempted to sand off the evil sticky dark brown varnish stuff all our windows are done in so that i may sucessfully gloss it white until the day we get upvc double glasing fitted arrives. The wall is yet to have its second coat of orange but i guess theres no rush. Now that we dont have an august baby im happy to hang on another 2 weeks like nature intends and then just take every drug going while getting it out! The sheets i got at bargain price have been returned but only because another branch of the same store had them for less again so i got those and returned the first saving even more- they should be 17 per pack at full price. On saturday i got 2 colours at 13.60 each. I now have those 2 colours at 7 and 8.50 and a 3rd pack at 13.60 Its all a bit baffling to me as they are the same but for colour so surely you'd think they'd be the same price?? but apparently its to do with a slight change in colour for the new batch of these and a discontinuation of those combined with general sale of the other- if you follow???!!! I was a bit cheeky as i didnt give my loyalty card for the refund thus kept those points and managed once again on my next purchase to aquire bonus points as well. Usually i'd feel guilty- im one of those people but in this case those points are my treats in life- i dont have many pleasures sad as that sounds so by saving these points for a rainy day i have a little ray of sunshine for when im ready to be spoilt or glam yet remain penniless! I've clocked up 103+ now so the world is my oyster ( All i need now is the time to apply posh makeup, the need and ability to wear fragrance or the time for a spa break and jobs a good 'un! )
Im off to sister in laws tomorrow hopefully after several reshedules to finally get my tinting and waxing done and to be honest once they're in place and i get brows and lashes im happy. The days of makeup and glam are almost a distant memory but i will find them again. 30 is my target, i was 28 a few weeks back so by 30 I aim to be sassy again - just like the girl next door who walked with a wiggle, wore skirts and boots, fluttered eyelash extensions and kissed wearing lipgloss managing enchantingly to capture the boy next door who's now my husband Strangely enough i think he's looking forward to her return too

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
friday 2nd september 2005

1:35pm

Moments like this either make you laugh or make you cry...

[girlygizmo]

Looks beautiful to me

Also I love the fact you are still able to wear your belly ring. It was a concern to me that i would have to remove mine once the belly started swelling.

Keep us informed, i have read avidly

[titianmac]

titianmacs baby diary
friday 2nd september 2005

10:31pm

I have just tucked my two angels up in bed. Andrew and emily have nodded off- one early and the other late with syncronised snoring filling our bed leaving me to sit about patiently waiting despite being rather knackered myself! Emily has been up since 7 but had a nap at mum and dads around tea time so was going nowhere and Andrew has had several bottles of beer and is attempting to get up at 5 tomorrow for overtime at work. Its been an odd day, ive been fusing about doing a lot of nothing to be honest yet its taken me all day and all my energy... very weird. I can only assume its a pregnant thing and hope it means things are getting closer. Im not exactly at the top of the list when it comes to domestic godesses, not even close but today found the urge to try desperately to straighten things out in the house-- i believe they call it nesting but never believed it would happen to me!!! Here in Derby the weather has been warm and sunny with a slight breeze today, perfect for pegging out washing yet i found myself so ahead of the game with the next load done but no room on the washing line that i got the tumble dryer in motion too! now i often use it but NEVER during the day and rarely if the sun is drying stuff for me!!! At one point i even found myself washing the soap dispenser drawer of the washer as it had splashes of fabric conditioner on it??!! Something is clearly very wrong and i think i may be ill! The final straw came when i started sorting the pegs out into good and bad which made perfect sense at the time. I took drastic action to stop the fluffing and sat down with a nice little bar of chocolate, some pop and read through the other forums to see whats going on in wedding world.
It was nice to see another comment on this thread- i guess they say big is beautiful for a reason but looking at that pic now all i can see is the imprint from my skirt where it suddenly got rather tight during a braxton hick and a few shiney stretchmarks! The tape measure was battling with my tummy button to hold it in as it has much to my horror now started to poke in and out which i find to be most gruesome to the point of throwing up or practically fainting- its that bad! How i ever got it pierced is still beyond me but as you can see having completed 1 pregnancy and almost the second the belly bar is still there- kind of.... its a special ptfe one which is a flexible plastic making it stretchy and bendy to accomodate the babys movements and stretching of skin etc, its also scan friendly I say its there still kind of as with everything else it's moved as ive grown Aisling and gemma were caught staring at me more than once before anything was said but basically it now looks more like a random skin piercing! EVERYTHING has stretched up and out- my chicken pox scar that once sat next to my belly button is now practically inches not centimetres away, my tattoo has doubled its size and lost definition and my belly bar is now just a pierced bit of skin half way up my abdomen! I look quite a sight when out and about sometimes, you dont realise its all hanging out till someone from the older generation looks over in what must be said as discust to see a pregnant belly hanging out with piercing and tatoo displayed for the world to see all be it by total accident! Its quite ironic really especially the tattoo as i purposly had it under the line of my trousers or skirts so its there for me but these days its hard to find anyone who hasnt seen it! Even poor mum and dad who werent impressed have got used to seeing it to the point i bet they could practically drew it dispite us having never done the look at my tattoo thing. They know its there but tattoos arent their cup of tea so no more was said
I managed to find a box of rasperry leaf tea that i might try next week. Its suppose to be good for helping labour. Ideally id have been on several litres a day last month but that didnt happen as i couldnt find the stuff or it was out of stock Apparently it helps to soften the cervix aiding labour so is recommended from about 35 weeks on but is a total no no before that. To be honest if it makes life easier that'll be great but the panic is over now isnt it? Andrew has asked me nicely if i would mind hanging onto baby till at least mnday lunchtime now... he's booked in for overtime tomorrow morning and then again sunday night so will thus be sleeping monday morning/lunch. Last ime i went into labour with emily as i said before he'd spent all day working on the house then done the nightshift and was totally wiped out bless him. This time he's threatening to send me support via a long range baby monitor while sat in the pub opposite the hospital so that at least if tired he's comfy and well looked after, typically he works rotating shifts on a 3 week cycle and next week is nights! Personally, im about ready now, my hair is freshly washed, legs shaved, lashes and brows shaped and tinted, nails are on and im feeling smugly together, all i need do now is convince someone to paint my toenails and its all good!
Emily is doing fab with the whole new baby thing, telling everyone her little "bruva" is coming soon and is in mummys belly. Wether she actually grasps it or not is doubtful but you never know. She now refers to the nursery as babys room which is ace as she certainly knows what babys are so should click when it arrives. That we worried would be hard having been her room for so long but its fine, the problem it seems comes when she spots the babys car seat or pram which she was obviously using till not long ago. Whether she knows them as hers specifically or just knows shes the only one of that similar size i dont know but the pram is out at the mo stripped down and being scrubbed and washed while causing Emily much temptation to climb onto. We feel mean keep saying no because it wasnt long ago we were encouraging it and in her world right now everything with praise is good or everything with no is bad- poor little thing seems confused a bit every now and again but i guess its to be expected. Trouble is shes so strong willed she'll argue it out with you and in a convincing fashion too! you'd almost believe she was having her terrible 2's !!!
I know there's no good or bad gap for age between children but nights like tonight really do make me wonder what on earth we thought we were doing! Gonna sign off as i've still got pots to wash from tea- such a glamourous life eh? Friday night and ive got a baggy tshirt on, am housebound and cant even turn the radio up because everyones asleep! I'm telling you, parenting is amazing but dont wish life away for it because it goes all to quick and gets really scary- i fancy watching a dvd but despite the huge collection we have i cant help but fancy popping fimbles on as i havent seen them in a few days and do believe im getting withdrawal symptoms!!!
Night night.x

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
friday 2nd sept 2005

11:32pm

You see???!!!!

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
saturday 3rd september 2005

8:48pm

What a long day! I decided in my wisdom after a minor debate with Andrew that i who pointed out i spend an awful lot of time at my parents lately that i would instead go into town with emily shopping to kill whatever part of the day i could. I find it hard being at home as its me chasing her and trying to keep her entertained but im failing miserably and feeling crap to boot. I decided rather than use the supermarket 5 mins away for a bottle of orange we would grab some in town while getting some gentle exercise and saying hello to the familiar faces on route. Once incity center i decided what the hell and found myself struggling up coach steps with a buggy bump and toddler heading for nottingham on a big adventure instead- i figured we'd be near QMC if we needed it! Usually im happy shopping and pottering in derby but there is a bead shop i use in notts that i needed to visit and seen as no time is good or getting better i bit the bullet and set off. Emily was a star and was thouraghly impressed with the coach as appose to our usual bus, it meant she was out the buggy for a change (our buses as buggy friendly so shes wheeled on, parked up and wheeled off- a godsend!) and she was a big girl and wore her seatbelt which she announced to the whole coach. She then told the driver she was ready and said her usual go go go! Its not something she does on a bus but its associated with the whole buckle up thing in the car so amused everyone greatly. Once moving she had a view of tree or other tree as she's so little on those seats and sat good but we sang most of the way there which the people next to us clearly enjoyed as i know i saw the odd head nodding or hand clapping at emily favorite song of the moment if you're happy and you know it Once at the bead shop i grabbed armfulls of goodies to keep us going (dad and i make wedding tiaras and jewellery) and set off on a quest for a sausage roll for emily and some juice- oh the high life
Typically about 5 mins from derby i had a phone call from the guy who shows our collection in his shop saying he had a commision order if i wanted to take it up. Its nice and easy but involves a few red crystals. As a rule we stock clear or AB (rainbow coated) but only buy in the colour we need as and when.... funny enough i now need to make another trip to the bead shop- d'oh! Isnt it just typical, if id waited till monday or even just caught the next bus home id have still been in notts when he rang but no- 5 mins from Derby on the bright side its something daft like a 110 order in total and we work that he's on commission so i'm sure i'll manage the bus ride one way or another bump permitting- the good news is its not an urgent or rush order so if the baby lands anyday soon i can still get sorted i think!

Andrew is currently chilling playing his psp in his lazyboy chair and emily is slowly looking tired so im gonna try settle her- wish me luck!!!

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
sunday 4th september 2005

10:30am

Hollyoaks is on tv in a minute. Its the only soap andrew watches funny enough. Sometimes it argues with the simpsons so we have a sunday treat of babefest instead. Today i am disturbed as he is out washing the car and it is me who has put the tv on. Funny really because right now i hate every skinny wench on the show! Andrew says one day when he grows up and is rich he's going to move to chester and live in hollyoaks because all the girls are lovely and wear little skirts- even mandy the pregnant one. I think he knows its not real but sometimes im not so sure
we're off to a subaru meet in a bit hence the car is being tarted up a bit. Some of them go to extremes while others just dont care. We're somewhere in the middle- it needs a clean so now seemed like a wise idea! We havent been attending the monthly meets lately- the group got super large super quick and the original gang all seemed to fade out or sell up. Its still an awesome sight to see 50+ subarus in a carpark looking pretty but we really loved about it all is the different people and attitudes combining in one happy mass for a few hours. The dudes talk parts and numbers and us smart chicks head for the bar and stay warm, dry and watered while catching up on non car gossip! Everyone is waiting for me to make a guest appearence today- pregnant mrs mac you see- its followed globally You never know, the journey may even make the baby think about moving a bit!

Last night was most productive- i have established i can complete the order for the jewellery to the ladies exact specifications colour size material the lot so im over the moon... we've not been showing our collection long and this is our first official order! We've made endless pieces for brides and their parties for over 2 years now but always as a favour, present or just advertising for the future while we were getting sorted so this is a really big deal Im so happy!!! All i need do now is make it before i have the baby and we'll be laughing! Truth is dad and his corporate take over are more than capable of doing it if i cant for any reason- you only have to look at my wedding necklace and tiara to see his abilities but i admit im looking forward to getting stuck in for a change.


Andrew and i had a conversation a few months ago that popped back into my head at about 4am this morning. Do animals speak languages or have accents??!!
Cats meow, dogs woof, pigs oink, sheep baa (e i ei o!) thats the way it is right? Personally every dog ive heard bark be it in skegness, london, france or america has sounded the same but do those dogs think i sound like the french people, nothern people and southern people because i think we all sound rather different! if a french dog meets an english dog and they bark at each other do they understand each other or is it like us trying to understand french? we answer back but we're talking english, they french- its all human but couldnt be more different! ...Makes you wonder eh?!

[titianmac]

titianmacs baby diary
sunday 4th sept

7:05pm


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[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
monday 5th september 2005

4:02pm

I have just made and am drinking my first cup of magical rasperberry leaf tea!

Its been a long day already- i decided on another adventure to nottingham and in my wisdom it would be easier without the buggy- just me and emily. She was a little star We walked to our bus stop, hopped off an into the shop selling our stuff to check some order bits, went to the fruit and veg man next door and got a mini bunch of grapes for the journey, nipped in the bakers for a sausage roll, nipped in the department store fot a quick wee then headed for the bus station where we coached happily over to the shop in nottingham. Todays coach was a modern one so emily could actually see out of the window to her delight. Every bridge was refered to as a tunnel (like on the train) as it took away the sunshine. We sang, munched grapes and swigged at juice- it was fun especially having no buggy around our ankles! Once there the shop is only about 8 along from the busstop so we pottered in, got our stuff and then headed home. the return stop is next to the crossing which is outside the shop so it was easy. The only problem we had was that the traffic signals are different there so we didnt have a green man to look for- just the beeping and possibly a green light on the button ststion thingy which confussed emily greatly. Thankfully the bus driver who had stopped for us was understanding and patient- well laughing actually- while i attempted to drag emily across the road with no green man in sight! once over our bus appeared and was the same driver much to emilys delight so she sat behind him and sang most of the journey home.
Since being back, emily has been a little monster as she is tired. Not on to give in and have an afternnon nap it went from bad to worse until she finally crashed about 20 mins ago. She played the whole need a wee wee game about 6 times to get out her room, each time i obliged then put her back. On leaving her for 2 mins to make juice in an attempt to soothe her she rewarded me by finally doing that said wee but on her bedroom carpet. She then cried because it had all gone wrong..... i am frazzled. Nevermind 2 sweetners in my herbal tea- i could do with 2 vallium and a vodka & coke!

[titianmac]

titianmacs baby diary
monday 5th september 2005

9: 12pm

Emily has just gone to bed- its late and her routines are quite rediculous but today i really havent got the ability to fight with her. Shes tired now because shes let me out the room without a squeek and ive heard nothing from her since so shes gone off instantly which was my plan... She stayed asleep from my earlier post and we woke her about 5ish. I seriously think she would have stayed snoring till tomorrow morning had we let her because she woke up sleepy and grumpy funny enough. Its warm out but i think she was warm too- i decided to give her some calpol see if it helped and magically within about 30 mins she had cooled off and was cool. The potty training is a nightmare and may be half the problem- she wants the toilet not the potty and then wants carrying up to it which i cant and wont do. Andrew saw shes taking the mickey so took over and things went from bad to worse as were i keep as patient as possible he certainly stands no crap. Emily thus got more upset and all the while i was having some serious braxton hicks!!! I am at the point where its starting to hurt because im so tight i think im gonna burst. It feels like minutes till im able to breath or move again then like magic it puffs up again... i dont know if its nature or the tea! Part of me wants to have another cup to see what happens but part of me is too scared remembering what i thought was painful last time until the pain kicked in! Im too tired right now!!! Back to the potty thing- miss independant didnt want a nappy but wouldnt pee on the loo or pot. After several little leaks she was frantic and eventually we literally wrestled her into a nappy for everyone sake. Within about 5 minutes she looked like the kid on the advert whos been swimming in the sea and has a nappy so full it almost touches the floor. Once it was out she was again calm... this is gonna be a long painful process!!! I think the trouble is that she had to have her pullup nappy on to go to notts- its clearly a wke up and be bare bum or not situation which poses problems as she is starting nursery tomorrow morning for the next 3 days! I know they help and all but if she does to them the whole need a wee wee thing every 5 mins its gonna be a bit much and not really fair- then again if she doesnt we're at square one or if they ignore her im doomed! Im sure they'll have fun with her anyway as shes to be there for 8:30 and that means i'll need to wake her up tomorrow pretty much guaranteed- lets hope she gets out the right side of bed eh?
Mum and dad are due any sec with my dinner (parents are great) so im signing off to grab my fork ready-- im soooo hungry i just hope i can squeeze it in somewhere amid the puffyness!

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
Tuesday 6th September 2005

8:56am

This feels weird- Emily is at nursery, andrew is in bed (just finished nightshift) and the morning is mine to do with what i please till 1:30!
There are a hundred little jobs whizzing through my mind but most involving sanding scrapping or just plain roller painting all of which may disturb andrew so are probably best avoided! I know he says carry on as normal but i still worry that that isnt quite normal you know? Trouble is its all really hard to do with emily about so its a catch 22 situation. Having said that though We have a dude coming around at about 2 to start work on our new stair banister- at present there isnt one and we have finally decided that one would be nice ( i decided a long time ago!!!)- so theres every chance i may pop emily up to my mum and dads or andrews parents for an hour or 2 while thats all going on to keep her out of the way and perhaps get on then myself too.

Last night i found myself curled up in bed just before 10. Dinner was lovely and i pecked at it well enough but i felt sick and was having some mad braxton hicks again- they just seem never ending! I also had a backache and pains in my legs though which despite simply being a bit ouchy and uncomfy was exciting as it was my legs that had all the labour pain with emily and for a second there i almost thought things might be happening for real. Needless to say im sat here now still braxton hicking, still twinging a bit, still with slight backache but still with no progress to report. It is soooooooooooo boring and annoying! I know when it does happen i'll be horrified because life will never be the same but yet i kind of want it over now. So many people classically give it the whole "i want it out now" for the last month... thing is other than the august thing im not or wasnt too bothered, things are just stuck in limbo and lofe feels like its on hold. I cant drive out too far or fast incase something happens, i cant do this and that and its getting tiresome. I also cant do half the stuff i want as i cant bend anymore! forget tying shoelaces- im at a point im webbling about trying to pull on trousers now- theres just nowhere for my legs to get past with this belly in the way! not only is it big but its dropped right down and sticks right out- i look classically like i have a beachball stuck up my top!!!

Hopefully the bits i ordered yesterday for my latest jewellery project should arrive in this mornings post if all goes to plan so if they do i can pop around to dads little workshop, kick him out and get busy myself... at least this pregnancy my fingers are okay- last time i got carpel tunnel syndrome and was useless, this time to be honest ive had quite a decent pregnancy... ive even still comfortably got on my wedding and engagement ring which is really rare! we got engaged when i was about 4 or 5 months pregnant with emily so that ring is a decent size anyway but had to come off towards the end of that pregnancy. My wedding ring is about 2 sizes smaller as we married when i was at my thinest- infact i was about 10lbs lighter when we married than before i got pregnant with emily so it really is a miricle that the ring is still on now- i guess it goes to show how idle i really am otherwise the weight on my feet would cause puffyness eh?!

aha- theres the postman and it looks like an envelpope of stuff on the doormat so there i go- off to make some jewellery, bye for now!x

[titianmac]

Titianmacs baby diary
tuesday 6th september 2005

8:40pm

More tea vicar?! The box says not more than 3 cups per day recommended- im about ready to brew it all up in a 2 litre jug and swig the lot! Have teabag shall travel so mum made me a cup earlier while i was in the workshop doing my thing. It was ace, me on the main bench and dad on his table both busying away, mum could be heard chuckling downstairs but i reckon she's just jealous
I managed to sucessfully complete the bracelet and earrings before going to get emily from nursery and then the necklace this afternoon. All i need is the closing tag which attaches happily to the jump ring and we're done, its due thursday so hopefully it wont be long till the bride to be is wooing at my amazing talent I also managed to design and make a little bracelet with a flower theme and a really pretty necklace too. Im dead chuffed as marie (soon to be sister in law) saw them and liked htem both, further more was later caught trying on the necklace. Its a big compliment as she's not really into crystally stuff at all and although agreeing our work is nice never really expresses much of an opinion so i know im onto a winner. I pointed out the daisy bits could be a colour ie lilac and worn by her bridesmaids for example and a little uum noise was heard above the ticking of her whiring brain
I think i'll get some more bits ordered and continue to be creative- id forgotten how fun it all is. It was really nice to know emily was in safe hands and busy while i had a break even if it was all a bit uncomfortable due to my continuing braxton hicks that just dont ease up! I was trying to explain to Dilly (marie) that its a tight feeling and came up with this that i'll share with you all to because im nice like that... you know when you get your blood pressure taken and its progressively getting tighter and puffier, starting to hurt a bit then suddenly theres a release... well its like that but lasts a bit longer and is your belly puffing and tightening Im getting used to my ever bobbing belly button now- its quite funny really, im over the sicky bit most of the while and instead find it mildly amusing- it has a life of its own. If it was a permanent outy i think id keel over good and proper but if i lift my belly it slopes back in and is quite squishy so im coping-- most of the time!!! Once upon a time people looked at me when they spoke to me, then for a while they simply stared at my chest, next they bagan talking to my bump and now they are mesmorised by my bobbing belly button